sex goddess
04.30.04 (11:27 am) [edit]
Ok, so I usually don't do these little quizes and even if I do, I don't post the results. But, after reading Cyberpal's results, I just had to do it! So, here are my sex goddess results....
HESTIA, the Goddess of Family and Peace.
She's a deity who embraces all the aspects of womanhood. As a woman in her image, you exude femininity and sensuality.
You view men as the perfect counterpart to your womanly ways. But you probably don't appreciate casual encounters. Rather, you prefer purity and tradition. Because of these predilections, you tend to attract men who understand your nature and possess maturity and seriousness beyond their years. When you finally arrive at the bedroom and your divine qualities are released, you reveal such sensuality that the experience is unforgettable. In other words, with the right guy, you really know how to get wild in the sack. In fact, when the mood strikes, you can easily drive your man crazy. But out of respect for your inner nature, you require love and devotion from your partners. You are an attentive and giving lover who knows how to make your man feel sexy, appreciated, and fulfilled. When you show your stuff, it's like a light shines down from the heavens. Behold, the skies proclaim, here lies a goddess!
HESTIA, the Goddess of Family and Peace.
She's a deity who embraces all the aspects of womanhood. As a woman in her image, you exude femininity and sensuality.
You view men as the perfect counterpart to your womanly ways. But you probably don't appreciate casual encounters. Rather, you prefer purity and tradition. Because of these predilections, you tend to attract men who understand your nature and possess maturity and seriousness beyond their years. When you finally arrive at the bedroom and your divine qualities are released, you reveal such sensuality that the experience is unforgettable. In other words, with the right guy, you really know how to get wild in the sack. In fact, when the mood strikes, you can easily drive your man crazy. But out of respect for your inner nature, you require love and devotion from your partners. You are an attentive and giving lover who knows how to make your man feel sexy, appreciated, and fulfilled. When you show your stuff, it's like a light shines down from the heavens. Behold, the skies proclaim, here lies a goddess!
my kitties...
04.29.04 (3:27 pm) [edit]
I have posted lots today...can you tell I'm a little bored at work? Well, anyway, here is a pic of my kitties.
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for babies or for fun?
04.29.04 (2:48 pm) [edit]
Since my sis announced that she is pregnant again, I keep hearing from my mom that my sis is really worried about me. She is worried that I will be upset cause she is pregnant and I'm not. If you have read my blog for very long, you will know that me and my hubby have been trying for a while now, over 2 years. What I don't get is...why would I be upset that she is pregnant? I can't wait to have another baby in the family! Yeah, I would be thrilled if it was me instead of her, but why would I be upset with her? I know that typically I can be a very jealous person, but this is not something that I can get jealous over.
So, my sis, being the loving sister that she is, decided to talk to her doc about my situation. Her doc suggested another doc that we go to that supposedly has a really good success rate in situations like ours. She also suggested all the same tips that have been suggested to me over the last year and a half. So, she called me to tell me about it all. While I was talking to her on the phone, I was in the middle of giving my kitty a bath. If you've ever had a cat, you know how much they love to be in water! Anyway, so I guess she told my mom that she thought I was really upset when she talked to me because I didn't seem very interested. Duh, I told her I was trying to bathe the little kitty! I was a little distracted! So, now she is all worried about me.
I am beginning to wish that I had never told anyone we were trying. I didn't at first. We kept it to ourselves for almost the whole first year. But when it got to the point that we wanted to go to the doc for some tests, I had to tell them about it. Now, all I ever hear is...have you tried this, have you tried that? Honestly I'm tired of it. I really do want to have kids, but when you are trying to do all these different things in order to get pregnant, you start not enjoying the sex. To me, if you can't enjoy it, then what's the point? I want to enjoy having sex with my husband. I want it to be spontaneous and fun, when we feel like it. I don't like having to plan it out and making sure I do this or that.
Because of all that, I guess I have kinda given up at this point. I miss the days of me and my hubby just enjoying each other. He is frustrated because it seems that I have lost much of the sex drive I used to have. I think a big part of that is the stress of trying so hard to get pregnant. I am hoping that if we chill out on the "baby-making" for a while maybe that will come back.
I know my hubby is also pretty bummed out that I have not gotten pregnant yet. I think maybe it is just not our time right now. Maybe it will happen in its own time. If not, then we will try for adoption. But, for now, I just wish everyone would leave me alone about it. At this point, everyone else seems more upset about it than I am!
So, my sis, being the loving sister that she is, decided to talk to her doc about my situation. Her doc suggested another doc that we go to that supposedly has a really good success rate in situations like ours. She also suggested all the same tips that have been suggested to me over the last year and a half. So, she called me to tell me about it all. While I was talking to her on the phone, I was in the middle of giving my kitty a bath. If you've ever had a cat, you know how much they love to be in water! Anyway, so I guess she told my mom that she thought I was really upset when she talked to me because I didn't seem very interested. Duh, I told her I was trying to bathe the little kitty! I was a little distracted! So, now she is all worried about me.
I am beginning to wish that I had never told anyone we were trying. I didn't at first. We kept it to ourselves for almost the whole first year. But when it got to the point that we wanted to go to the doc for some tests, I had to tell them about it. Now, all I ever hear is...have you tried this, have you tried that? Honestly I'm tired of it. I really do want to have kids, but when you are trying to do all these different things in order to get pregnant, you start not enjoying the sex. To me, if you can't enjoy it, then what's the point? I want to enjoy having sex with my husband. I want it to be spontaneous and fun, when we feel like it. I don't like having to plan it out and making sure I do this or that.
Because of all that, I guess I have kinda given up at this point. I miss the days of me and my hubby just enjoying each other. He is frustrated because it seems that I have lost much of the sex drive I used to have. I think a big part of that is the stress of trying so hard to get pregnant. I am hoping that if we chill out on the "baby-making" for a while maybe that will come back.
I know my hubby is also pretty bummed out that I have not gotten pregnant yet. I think maybe it is just not our time right now. Maybe it will happen in its own time. If not, then we will try for adoption. But, for now, I just wish everyone would leave me alone about it. At this point, everyone else seems more upset about it than I am!
wouldn't you know it....
04.29.04 (1:14 pm) [edit]
While I was at lunch I thought of 3 or 4 different topics that I wanted to blog about. Now that I am back in front of my computer I can't remember a single damn one of them. :x
popularity contest?
04.29.04 (11:50 am) [edit]
I decided to throw myself in the mix for featured blogs, so if you like what you read here, please toss a vote my way!
tell the ones you love
04.29.04 (10:58 am) [edit]
How often do you say "I love you" to the people in your life? How often do you really let them know how much you care?
Most people would not consider me to be a very affectionate person. I am not very good at openly expressing my feelings. It is difficult for me to even say I love you to my parents or other family members. I think the only person who receives this confirmation from me on a regular basis is my husband (and my animals if you count them). I am a rather private person and do not like to share my feelings with just anyone. Over the last few years I have started to open up a little bit. I can now occasionally tell my family or friends that I love them, or that I really care about them. It is a strange phenomenon to me how difficult this can be. I think a lot of it comes from how you are brought up. Throughout my life I have been around families who are very affectionate with each other and say I love you with a hug or kiss daily. I have also been around families who can barely look each other in the eye and would never even consider saying or doing those things. My family was somewhere in the middle. We always knew we were loved and we all cared about each other a lot, but we were never the huggy, kissy, lovey type (with the exception of my sister who went through a phase for a while).
I think this is something that I need to work on. I need to feel comfortable expressing how I feel about other people. I know it makes me feel good when someone else tells me that they love and care about me. I want to be able to make someone else feel good. When (if) I have children, I want to raise them in a home where they feel good expressing themselves. I want them to know how much I love them. It seems like such a trivial thing, but I think that it can really make a difference in someone's life just to know that there is someone else out there that loves them.
So, my advice to you today...go out and let someone know how much you love them, and I will try to do the same.
Most people would not consider me to be a very affectionate person. I am not very good at openly expressing my feelings. It is difficult for me to even say I love you to my parents or other family members. I think the only person who receives this confirmation from me on a regular basis is my husband (and my animals if you count them). I am a rather private person and do not like to share my feelings with just anyone. Over the last few years I have started to open up a little bit. I can now occasionally tell my family or friends that I love them, or that I really care about them. It is a strange phenomenon to me how difficult this can be. I think a lot of it comes from how you are brought up. Throughout my life I have been around families who are very affectionate with each other and say I love you with a hug or kiss daily. I have also been around families who can barely look each other in the eye and would never even consider saying or doing those things. My family was somewhere in the middle. We always knew we were loved and we all cared about each other a lot, but we were never the huggy, kissy, lovey type (with the exception of my sister who went through a phase for a while).
I think this is something that I need to work on. I need to feel comfortable expressing how I feel about other people. I know it makes me feel good when someone else tells me that they love and care about me. I want to be able to make someone else feel good. When (if) I have children, I want to raise them in a home where they feel good expressing themselves. I want them to know how much I love them. It seems like such a trivial thing, but I think that it can really make a difference in someone's life just to know that there is someone else out there that loves them.
So, my advice to you today...go out and let someone know how much you love them, and I will try to do the same.
Christmas delivery
04.28.04 (3:19 pm) [edit]
My sister just got back from the doctor and was told that her due date will be December 24th. What a nice Christmas present that will be!!!
the sky is falling....
04.28.04 (10:49 am) [edit]
Apparently they are doing some construction on the floor above us and it sounds like the ceiling is about to fall in. I hope I'm still here at the end of the day!
It reminds me of when I was a little kid. When I was about 5 years old, we moved into a new house. The ceiling in my bedroom was very cracked and I was always afraid that it was going to fall on me. One day when I was talking to my mom about it, she told me that her bedroom ceiling had actually fallen in when she was a kid. From that point on, I was terrified to go to sleep. I was afraid that the ceiling would fall in while I was sleeping and crush me. We lived there for about 4 1/2 years I think and the whole time I was afraid that it was going to happen. Of course, it never did, but I still tend to get anxious anytime I see a cracked ceiling or hear loud noises above me!
It reminds me of when I was a little kid. When I was about 5 years old, we moved into a new house. The ceiling in my bedroom was very cracked and I was always afraid that it was going to fall on me. One day when I was talking to my mom about it, she told me that her bedroom ceiling had actually fallen in when she was a kid. From that point on, I was terrified to go to sleep. I was afraid that the ceiling would fall in while I was sleeping and crush me. We lived there for about 4 1/2 years I think and the whole time I was afraid that it was going to happen. Of course, it never did, but I still tend to get anxious anytime I see a cracked ceiling or hear loud noises above me!
family traits...
04.27.04 (7:34 pm) [edit]
My mother is turning into my Grandma. This is my revelation for the day. I have been thinking that this was happening for a while, but it was so obvious today. My Grandma has a knack for story telling. She loves to tell stories. She loves to tell everyone everything. The problem is, she doesn't know when to stop. The other problem is, she repeats herself over and over again and the story tends to change each time she repeats it.
How this all affects me: I got stuck for 45 minutes tonight listening to my mom repeat the same things that she had already told me earlier. This is not the first time it has happened either. I often get stuck like this when I am trying to leave work. I guess she doesn't realize that I actually want to go home when I'm done with work, not sit around and talk about it for another hour.
Besides all of that, I am really worried that I will someday turn into this as well. I seem to take very much after my mom, in personality as well as many other things. I am sure that I will probably inherit this as well. Kinda scary!
How this all affects me: I got stuck for 45 minutes tonight listening to my mom repeat the same things that she had already told me earlier. This is not the first time it has happened either. I often get stuck like this when I am trying to leave work. I guess she doesn't realize that I actually want to go home when I'm done with work, not sit around and talk about it for another hour.
Besides all of that, I am really worried that I will someday turn into this as well. I seem to take very much after my mom, in personality as well as many other things. I am sure that I will probably inherit this as well. Kinda scary!
things are looking brighter....
04.27.04 (2:23 pm) [edit]
Things are going good today. Everyone is happy to have the good boss back. I'm very busy, but I can already tell a difference in my mood. I don't feel as stressed out today as I have been feeling for the last few weeks.
Also, it sounds like my job will be transforming a bit. Although I haven't been told directly by either boss yet, I hear that I will be working under the good boss from now on, and not under the bad boss. My mom will also be my direct supervisor, although we will be doing pretty much the same jobs. I just hope that it all works out and that there doesn't end up being any animosity between people in the office as a result of this.
I am excited, and at the same time a little scared of what is going to happen next. I am giving my best effort at having a positive attitude with everyone around the office right now. If everything goes as I am hoping it will, I might actually start liking my job again!
Also, it sounds like my job will be transforming a bit. Although I haven't been told directly by either boss yet, I hear that I will be working under the good boss from now on, and not under the bad boss. My mom will also be my direct supervisor, although we will be doing pretty much the same jobs. I just hope that it all works out and that there doesn't end up being any animosity between people in the office as a result of this.
I am excited, and at the same time a little scared of what is going to happen next. I am giving my best effort at having a positive attitude with everyone around the office right now. If everything goes as I am hoping it will, I might actually start liking my job again!
feeling good...
04.26.04 (11:56 am) [edit]
The good boss gets back tomorrow. Actually, his plane gets in this afternoon, but I probably won't see him until tomorrow. I never thought I would be so happy to see my boss, but I am so excited for him to get back and things to get back to a somewhat normal status around here. It has been really awful while he has been gone!
I'm feeling rather accomplished today. Besides the fact that I finished this totally kick-ass layout lastnight, I have been kicking butt at work today as well. I just finished a big project that has been haning over me for a while and I only have a few more things to do before I am pretty much caught up. That way, when the good boss does get in tomorrow and starts slamming me with stuff, I will be able to handle it rather than getting totally overwhelmed!
I really think this week is going to be better. It will all depend on how things turn out tomorrow, but for now, it is looking good.
I'm feeling rather accomplished today. Besides the fact that I finished this totally kick-ass layout lastnight, I have been kicking butt at work today as well. I just finished a big project that has been haning over me for a while and I only have a few more things to do before I am pretty much caught up. That way, when the good boss does get in tomorrow and starts slamming me with stuff, I will be able to handle it rather than getting totally overwhelmed!
I really think this week is going to be better. It will all depend on how things turn out tomorrow, but for now, it is looking good.
more unconcious mutterings...
04.26.04 (9:37 am) [edit]
- Elastic:: Stretch
- Intervention:: Divine
- Risk:: Take
- Junk food:: Good
- Arrogance:: Men
- Responsibility:: Adult
- X:: Marks the spot
- Marshall:: Mathers
- Kill:: Bill
- Brother:: Jared
new layout and kitten update
04.25.04 (10:20 pm) [edit]
So I finally went and made my own custom layout. I got the idea from another site I saw, but the graphics and final layout are all mine. Please tell me if you like it. This is probably the most complicated layout I have done. I'm just starting to leard CSS and working with this helped me quite a bit.
Also, as we were driving this weekend I came up with the perfect name for my kitten. We had decided on Maya, but now we are changing it to Zora. It seems to fit better to me. Plus, I used to have another black and white cat named Zorro, who was killed after he was attacked by dogs. He was my favorite cat that I ever had, so I came up with Zora, as kind of a tribute to him.
Well, I'm off to bed. More updates tomorrow!
Also, as we were driving this weekend I came up with the perfect name for my kitten. We had decided on Maya, but now we are changing it to Zora. It seems to fit better to me. Plus, I used to have another black and white cat named Zorro, who was killed after he was attacked by dogs. He was my favorite cat that I ever had, so I came up with Zora, as kind of a tribute to him.
Well, I'm off to bed. More updates tomorrow!
wtf!?!?!?!?!?!?
04.23.04 (12:17 pm) [edit]
This is absolutely ridiculous!!!
she finally has a name!
04.23.04 (9:40 am) [edit]
Well, I see that the popular name on here was Samara, which is also probably my favorite, but after talking it over with my hubby lastnight, we finally decided to call her Maya. And here's another pic of her just in case you forgot how cute she is!
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Vote for a name PLEASE
04.22.04 (2:33 pm) [edit]
So, here is a litst of names I have come up with so far. Please vote for your favorite, then I'll hopefully make up my mind before I get home tonight!
Surprise!
04.22.04 (9:44 am) [edit]
My hubby called me lastnight when I was just about to leave work and said he had a surprise for me. So, of course I had to ask, "What is it?" and he refused to tell me. So, I rushed home to see what he brought me. Now, you have to understand that he is not one to bring flowers or anything at the spur of the moment, so I was really wondering what it was. Imagine my surprise when he walked in with this......
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I was so excited! We have talked about getting another cat, but he always says no (which is understandable with all the animals we have already!). I really was surprised. It was so sweet of him to get me a kitty. And to top it all off, he even did the dishes lastnight! I'm beginning to wonder who took over my husband's body cause this is so not like him at all!
I still have to come up with a name for the new kitty. It is a girl and I'm really having a hard time coming up with a girl name. I keep thinking of boy names! I want it to be something original, not just an ordinary pet name. Anyone have any suggestions?
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I was so excited! We have talked about getting another cat, but he always says no (which is understandable with all the animals we have already!). I really was surprised. It was so sweet of him to get me a kitty. And to top it all off, he even did the dishes lastnight! I'm beginning to wonder who took over my husband's body cause this is so not like him at all!
I still have to come up with a name for the new kitty. It is a girl and I'm really having a hard time coming up with a girl name. I keep thinking of boy names! I want it to be something original, not just an ordinary pet name. Anyone have any suggestions?
following my thoughts...
04.21.04 (1:22 pm) [edit]
Isn't it funny how our thoughts move us along from one thing to the next? You can be thinking or talking about one thing and suddenly, without knowing it, you are on a totally different topic. I do this constantly. I think it is interesting to trace back my thoughts and figure out how I got from one thing to the next.
I was sitting at work this morning and was getting bored of the radio, so I decided to turn on Launchcast for a while. I heard a song that reminded me of a little get-together we had last weekend with some friends. Then I thought of the song "What's Up" by the 4 Non-blondes because one of my friends that was there always sings this song after a few drinks at every party we go to. I let the thought pass and reached for a piece of chocolate cause I was craving something sweet. Then *boom* this song pops into my head and has been there ever since.
Morphine & Chocolate-4 Non-blondes
Substitute my gloom with happiness
Substitute my sickness with health
Substitute my enemies with real good friends
Morphine & Chocolate are my
Substitute, substitutes
Morphine & Chocolate can bring me up
Can warm my heart whenever I want it
And every once in a while when I stop and think
Morphine & Chocolate are my
Substitute, substitutes
And you can say " Hey, we've really come a long way "
And you say " Hey, it can only be this way "
You might be careful, It really hurts when it's real
You might be careful, It really hurts when it's real
You'll go down, down, down, down, ooh !
Set the alarm clock, baby
Don't you miss the sun ?
I'm feeling really warm hearted baby
Don't you know I'm feeling like someone
I'm fearing for my life again and I am
Fearing for my heart
Morphine & Chocolate could never
Substitute my art !
And that's real love baby X3
I was sitting at work this morning and was getting bored of the radio, so I decided to turn on Launchcast for a while. I heard a song that reminded me of a little get-together we had last weekend with some friends. Then I thought of the song "What's Up" by the 4 Non-blondes because one of my friends that was there always sings this song after a few drinks at every party we go to. I let the thought pass and reached for a piece of chocolate cause I was craving something sweet. Then *boom* this song pops into my head and has been there ever since.
Morphine & Chocolate-4 Non-blondes
Substitute my gloom with happiness
Substitute my sickness with health
Substitute my enemies with real good friends
Morphine & Chocolate are my
Substitute, substitutes
Morphine & Chocolate can bring me up
Can warm my heart whenever I want it
And every once in a while when I stop and think
Morphine & Chocolate are my
Substitute, substitutes
And you can say " Hey, we've really come a long way "
And you say " Hey, it can only be this way "
You might be careful, It really hurts when it's real
You might be careful, It really hurts when it's real
You'll go down, down, down, down, ooh !
Set the alarm clock, baby
Don't you miss the sun ?
I'm feeling really warm hearted baby
Don't you know I'm feeling like someone
I'm fearing for my life again and I am
Fearing for my heart
Morphine & Chocolate could never
Substitute my art !
And that's real love baby X3
Unconcious Mutterings
04.20.04 (11:28 am) [edit]
- Virginia:: Cousins
- Soft:: Hard
- Carol:: Christmas
- Vanity:: Mirror
- Feminist:: Powerful
- Alias:: TV show
- Coward:: Weak
- Beer:: Party
- Chance:: More
- Honest:: Pure
Find it at subliminal.lunanina.com
odds 'n' ends
04.20.04 (10:49 am) [edit]
Today has been rather mundane so far. I had to get up early so my hubby could give me a ride in to work as my mom is borrowing my car until hers is out of the shop. I absolutely hate getting up early. This makes two days in a row and I am so tired! But regardless of how tired I am, I have so much work to get done today. The good boss is coming back next week and I need to have everything caught up before he gets here. I am very excited for him to get back, but at the same time I know things are gonna be crazy around here for a couple weeks while he gets back into things. I was reassured by him yesterday that things are gonna change when he gets back. He wants to do some re-organizing of the structure within our office and will most likely put me working directly under himself and my mom. I am really hoping that this will happen. I think I would be much happier that way!
I got some great news from a friend lastnight. His wife took off and left a couple months ago with his daughter and he has been searching for her ever since. Over the weekend, he was finally able to go pick up his daughter and bring her home. From what I understand, the mom gave her up because she was afraid she would go to jail otherwise. It is a bad situation to be in, but I am just so happy that he got his little girl back home safely. He has been so worried about her!
I got some great news from a friend lastnight. His wife took off and left a couple months ago with his daughter and he has been searching for her ever since. Over the weekend, he was finally able to go pick up his daughter and bring her home. From what I understand, the mom gave her up because she was afraid she would go to jail otherwise. It is a bad situation to be in, but I am just so happy that he got his little girl back home safely. He has been so worried about her!
itchy...
04.19.04 (2:12 pm) [edit]
I finally got out and mowed my yard this weekend. I couldn't believe how hot it was on Saturday. I was also astonished at how BIG my yard is! I had forgotten from last year. We moved in in Sept. and only had to mow a couple times last year. It took forever to mow it with the little push mower that we are borrowing. I think we definitely need to get a rider! Anyway, after spending all day out in the sun mowing, I managed to get myself quite a sunburn, which is now starting to get dried out and itchy despite all the lotion I have been putting on it.
Saturday night, I had the pleasure of watching my guitar teacher play at a little coffee shop. It was a really small intimate crowd of about 10 people, but I enjoyed getting to watch him play for the first time. After that we went over to a friends house to hang out and one of the guys there pulled out an acoustic guitar from his car and started playing. We spent the rest of the night passing the guitar around playing songs and singing along. I know it sounds kinda cheesy, but it really was a blast. We didn't end up leaving until after 4 in the morning. The greatest part of it was that he taught me how to play Norwegian Wood, one of my favorite Beatles songs. I don't remember it all, but he said he was gonna tab it out and send it to me.
I have been thinking a lot this weekend about my job situation. I really seem to be getting more and more stressed out here and I'm just not sure it is worth it. I have a B.S. in Psychology and a year of Masters level classes in Social Work and for the last 2+ years I have been doing nothing even remotely related to either of those and I really miss it. I started working on my resume lastnight and was looking through job listings. I found a job at a Psychiatric hospital in Louisiana that sounded like something I would really enjoy, plus, I was actually qualified for the position with my degree and experience. I got really excited just thinking about how much I would like that job, and I'm really thinking that I may be heading in the wrong direction. Maybe I need to get back into the Psychology realm and find a job that I like again. I'm just not sure I have the guts to make that change right now. I worry about my finances, whether I could afford to take a pay cut, and whether I could give up some of the benefits that I have now. I'm gonna have to give this a lot of thought. I think I might even be to the point that I would consider moving....if hubby and I could both find jobs that we would like. I think I'm gonna seriously start looking around and see what I can find. There may be something out there just good enough to convince me.
Saturday night, I had the pleasure of watching my guitar teacher play at a little coffee shop. It was a really small intimate crowd of about 10 people, but I enjoyed getting to watch him play for the first time. After that we went over to a friends house to hang out and one of the guys there pulled out an acoustic guitar from his car and started playing. We spent the rest of the night passing the guitar around playing songs and singing along. I know it sounds kinda cheesy, but it really was a blast. We didn't end up leaving until after 4 in the morning. The greatest part of it was that he taught me how to play Norwegian Wood, one of my favorite Beatles songs. I don't remember it all, but he said he was gonna tab it out and send it to me.
I have been thinking a lot this weekend about my job situation. I really seem to be getting more and more stressed out here and I'm just not sure it is worth it. I have a B.S. in Psychology and a year of Masters level classes in Social Work and for the last 2+ years I have been doing nothing even remotely related to either of those and I really miss it. I started working on my resume lastnight and was looking through job listings. I found a job at a Psychiatric hospital in Louisiana that sounded like something I would really enjoy, plus, I was actually qualified for the position with my degree and experience. I got really excited just thinking about how much I would like that job, and I'm really thinking that I may be heading in the wrong direction. Maybe I need to get back into the Psychology realm and find a job that I like again. I'm just not sure I have the guts to make that change right now. I worry about my finances, whether I could afford to take a pay cut, and whether I could give up some of the benefits that I have now. I'm gonna have to give this a lot of thought. I think I might even be to the point that I would consider moving....if hubby and I could both find jobs that we would like. I think I'm gonna seriously start looking around and see what I can find. There may be something out there just good enough to convince me.
The stork is coming to visit....
04.19.04 (9:03 am) [edit]
The stork is coming....but not for me. My big sis found out lastnight that she is pregnant! She has been trying for about a year now and it finally happened. I am so happy for her.
What's really cool though is the story that goes with the news. My sis, her husband, and my nephew went out to dinner one night and were sitting in the middle of a pretty nice restaurant. My nephew (who is 4 years old) had gone to the restroom and when he got back to the table said, "Mommy, guess what I did in the bathroom?" She was trying to hush him because she was afraid of what he was going to say, and he says, "But mommy, I just did a prayer." So she told him to go ahead and tell her about it. He said, "Mommy, I said a prayer to ask God for a baby so you don't have to be sad about it anymore." Then, a couple weeks later, she turns out to be pregnant! I think that is just the coolest story. My nephew is so excited. He can't wait to have a little brother or sister around.
So, when he was on the phone lastnight telling us the news, I told him he needs to say a prayer for me too...
My mom was really worried about how I would take the news. My hubby and I have been trying for just over 2 years now. I have to admit, it does make me a little sad, but I am so happy for her anyway. I guess if I never have my own, at least I can enjoy being an Aunt! Of course, if I could manage to get pregnant in the next month or two, it would be really fun to have them be the same age....
What's really cool though is the story that goes with the news. My sis, her husband, and my nephew went out to dinner one night and were sitting in the middle of a pretty nice restaurant. My nephew (who is 4 years old) had gone to the restroom and when he got back to the table said, "Mommy, guess what I did in the bathroom?" She was trying to hush him because she was afraid of what he was going to say, and he says, "But mommy, I just did a prayer." So she told him to go ahead and tell her about it. He said, "Mommy, I said a prayer to ask God for a baby so you don't have to be sad about it anymore." Then, a couple weeks later, she turns out to be pregnant! I think that is just the coolest story. My nephew is so excited. He can't wait to have a little brother or sister around.
So, when he was on the phone lastnight telling us the news, I told him he needs to say a prayer for me too...
My mom was really worried about how I would take the news. My hubby and I have been trying for just over 2 years now. I have to admit, it does make me a little sad, but I am so happy for her anyway. I guess if I never have my own, at least I can enjoy being an Aunt! Of course, if I could manage to get pregnant in the next month or two, it would be really fun to have them be the same age....
red sox or yankees???
04.16.04 (9:20 am) [edit]
Its finally friday and I am so looking forward to the weekend! I really need some time to relax! I'm in a great mood, and hopefully I can keep it all day if no one bothers me. Got my Shinedown spinning in the cd player and the Red Sox start a 4 game series with the Yankees tonight. What more can you ask for? I just hope that the Sox can pull it off. They are starting off kinda rocky with a 4-4 record so far. I would love to see them make the world series this year. I was so disappointed last season!
Here's a little list I had in my inbox this morning. Just thought I would share in case there are any other Sox fans out there!
10 reasons it's better to be a Red Sox fan than a Yankees fan:
-The Green Monster
-Kenmore Square vs. The Bronx, 'nuff said
-The view from the Roof
-Two words: No-mah's Bet-tah
-The Sox don't need A-Rod to score runs
-Epstein's younger than Cashman
-Cy Youngs: Pedro 4, Mussina 0
-Batting titles since '99: Bos 4, NY 0
-Teddy Ballgame
-The chowder's better in Boston
Here's a little list I had in my inbox this morning. Just thought I would share in case there are any other Sox fans out there!
10 reasons it's better to be a Red Sox fan than a Yankees fan:
-The Green Monster
-Kenmore Square vs. The Bronx, 'nuff said
-The view from the Roof
-Two words: No-mah's Bet-tah
-The Sox don't need A-Rod to score runs
-Epstein's younger than Cashman
-Cy Youngs: Pedro 4, Mussina 0
-Batting titles since '99: Bos 4, NY 0
-Teddy Ballgame
-The chowder's better in Boston
what a busy day!
04.14.04 (4:38 pm) [edit]
I can't believe how busy this week has been. I was thinking it would be relaxing, but so far I have been absolutely swamped. I haven't even had a chance to read any blogs today :(
So, I went to check prices and stuff on my tattoo lastnight and they weren't busy, so I went ahead and did it. I was pretty surprised that it didn't hurt nearly as bad as the last one I got. I decided on the blue one with the thicker outline. He didn't quite get the shade of blue that I was going for, but I like it anyway. If you want to see a pic, it is posted on my Phlog site. I'll post a better pic here once it heals up a bit.
So, I went to check prices and stuff on my tattoo lastnight and they weren't busy, so I went ahead and did it. I was pretty surprised that it didn't hurt nearly as bad as the last one I got. I decided on the blue one with the thicker outline. He didn't quite get the shade of blue that I was going for, but I like it anyway. If you want to see a pic, it is posted on my Phlog site. I'll post a better pic here once it heals up a bit.
tattoo update...
04.13.04 (3:01 pm) [edit]
I think I have decided on the blue (see post below). I like the thicker outline, but I think I will talk to the tattoo artist about that a bit before I decide for sure. I'm kinda excited about getting it. We are gonna go down to the tattoo shop tonight after work to talk to them about it and get a price quote. I can't wait!
I was talking to a friend this morning, and I was telling him that I think the story or meaning behind a tattoo is often more interesting than the tattoo itself. Not to discount the amazing artwork that most tattoo artists do, but sometimes the stories are just amazing. So, keeping that in mind, I will share with you what I shared with him about the meaning of this tattoo to me.
There are two reasons for this particular design. 1.) This was something that hung in my house when I was growing up. I can't remember who it came from, but it was carved out of wood and given to my dad at some point. I remember it hanging in his office for a while and various other places depending on where we lived. It reminds me of my family, as well as my upbringing, and all of the various churches that we were a part of when I was a kid. Being a preacher's kid, these churches and the people that I met there formed a big part of who I am today. 2.) In the early days of Christianty, when people were condemned for their beliefs, many people who followed Jesus would brand the fish symbol on their body to show that they believed. They could not speak out loud of their beliefs, but this was a symbol to other believers. To me, this is a way to show my beliefs without having to shout it out to everybody all the time. I don't think it is any different that someone who wears a cross necklace or any other religious jewelry every day. It is not only to show others, but a daily reminder to myself of how I should live my life.
I also mentioned in a comment on my previous blog, that this is a design that my husband wanted. While working on the design for him, he suggested that I get it too. Although his will be slightly different from mine, it is the same basic design, which has meaning to both of us. It is something that we will always share.
I was talking to a friend this morning, and I was telling him that I think the story or meaning behind a tattoo is often more interesting than the tattoo itself. Not to discount the amazing artwork that most tattoo artists do, but sometimes the stories are just amazing. So, keeping that in mind, I will share with you what I shared with him about the meaning of this tattoo to me.
There are two reasons for this particular design. 1.) This was something that hung in my house when I was growing up. I can't remember who it came from, but it was carved out of wood and given to my dad at some point. I remember it hanging in his office for a while and various other places depending on where we lived. It reminds me of my family, as well as my upbringing, and all of the various churches that we were a part of when I was a kid. Being a preacher's kid, these churches and the people that I met there formed a big part of who I am today. 2.) In the early days of Christianty, when people were condemned for their beliefs, many people who followed Jesus would brand the fish symbol on their body to show that they believed. They could not speak out loud of their beliefs, but this was a symbol to other believers. To me, this is a way to show my beliefs without having to shout it out to everybody all the time. I don't think it is any different that someone who wears a cross necklace or any other religious jewelry every day. It is not only to show others, but a daily reminder to myself of how I should live my life.
I also mentioned in a comment on my previous blog, that this is a design that my husband wanted. While working on the design for him, he suggested that I get it too. Although his will be slightly different from mine, it is the same basic design, which has meaning to both of us. It is something that we will always share.
burning bright...
04.13.04 (11:48 am) [edit]
This song has been in my head for over a week now, ever since we went to the Shinedown show. I love it. My favorite part of the song is where it says "There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right
Such a cruel contradiction..." I feel like I can really relate to that.
Burning Bright-Shinedown
I feel like there is no need for conversation
Some questions are better left without a reason
And I would rather reveal myself than my situation
Now and then I consider, my hesitation
The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright
I wonder if the things I did were just to be different
To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence
And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation
Here and now I'll express, my situation
The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright
There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right
Such a cruel contradiction
I know I cross the lines its not easy to define
I'm born to indecision
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose
With no particular rhyme or reason
The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright
**If you haven't already done so, take a look at my tattoo designs below and tell me which one you think I should get!**
Such a cruel contradiction..." I feel like I can really relate to that.
Burning Bright-Shinedown
I feel like there is no need for conversation
Some questions are better left without a reason
And I would rather reveal myself than my situation
Now and then I consider, my hesitation
The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright
I wonder if the things I did were just to be different
To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence
And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation
Here and now I'll express, my situation
The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright
There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right
Such a cruel contradiction
I know I cross the lines its not easy to define
I'm born to indecision
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose
With no particular rhyme or reason
The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright
**If you haven't already done so, take a look at my tattoo designs below and tell me which one you think I should get!**
need tattoo advice
04.13.04 (9:07 am) [edit]
I am thinking of getting a new tattoo, and this is what I came up with, but I can't decided which one I prefer. I am also debating the colors. I like the black and red, but I'm not really sure I want such bold colors. I might like something a little lighter, but I'm not sure what. Any advice would be appreciated!
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Here are some of the other colors I am considering....
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Here are some of the other colors I am considering....
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miscellaneous monday
04.12.04 (11:17 am) [edit]
What a crazy week it was last week. After all the BS with my boss, I ended up having to work late on Friday. I don't mind working late any other day of the week, but not on Friday, especially on Good Friday, when I had planned to go to church. At least the asshole boss is out of town this week, so I should be able to get some work done and not be pissy all week!
I hope everyone had a great weekend and a Happy Easter (for those who celebrate it). I personally had a great weekend. I got to spend a lot of time with my family, which I always enjoy. After church and dinner with my family on Sunday, we spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning out my dad's basement. My brother, sister and I all have boxes down there of stuff from when we were growing up. My dad is getting ready to move again in June, so he asked us all to come over and try to clean out as much of it as we could as he will no longer be able to store it. I always enjoy going through all of that old stuff. It brings back so many memories!
I started up a new Phlog site where I can post my pics form my phone. There is a link at the left. I haven't posted much yet, but there will be more to come soon!
I hope everyone had a great weekend and a Happy Easter (for those who celebrate it). I personally had a great weekend. I got to spend a lot of time with my family, which I always enjoy. After church and dinner with my family on Sunday, we spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning out my dad's basement. My brother, sister and I all have boxes down there of stuff from when we were growing up. My dad is getting ready to move again in June, so he asked us all to come over and try to clean out as much of it as we could as he will no longer be able to store it. I always enjoy going through all of that old stuff. It brings back so many memories!
I started up a new Phlog site where I can post my pics form my phone. There is a link at the left. I haven't posted much yet, but there will be more to come soon!
update on the work situation...
04.08.04 (3:21 pm) [edit]
Apparently GB called in while I was gone at lunch to see how things were going. He finally pulled out of my mom a little of what went on this morning. He basically told her that if I was at the point that I was ready to walk out, that he would hire me to work for him as my mom's assistant. That way, I would not have to work for BB anymore, but I would basically have the same job as I do now. I'm thinking that might be a good solution. GB is such a nice guy. He really makes me feel appreciated. He has made it very clear several times, including today, that he does not want to lose me as an employee. I feel better. Maybe there is a light at the end of the tunnel after all!
chilled out....a little bit...
04.08.04 (3:05 pm) [edit]
Well, after an almost 2 hour lunch break (yes, i was told i could take an extra long break), a trip to Wal-Mart, and a TenderCrisp Chicken sandwich from BK, I am $135 poorer than I was before and a little bit more chilled out than I was this morning.
One of my biggest flaws (in my opinion) is that I am an extremely bad impulse/emotional shopper. Because of this, I have am way too far in debt. I have been really working hard on not doing this over the last couple of years, but sometimes I still slip up.
Normally, on a day like today, when I am stressed or upset about something, I don't allow myself to go into any stores unless absolutely necessary. Well, today was one of those absolutely necessary trips. My animals are out of food and I had to go get them some. I was also needing a few essentials...soap, lotion, toothpaste, etc. So, I had to make the trip to Wal-Mart, even though I knew it would be a bad idea. Well, I did get everything on my list...plus 2 necklaces, 5 shirts, and a couple of lip glosses. Damn....I really went in there thinking I could control it, but apparently I am not quite there yet.
One of my biggest flaws (in my opinion) is that I am an extremely bad impulse/emotional shopper. Because of this, I have am way too far in debt. I have been really working hard on not doing this over the last couple of years, but sometimes I still slip up.
Normally, on a day like today, when I am stressed or upset about something, I don't allow myself to go into any stores unless absolutely necessary. Well, today was one of those absolutely necessary trips. My animals are out of food and I had to go get them some. I was also needing a few essentials...soap, lotion, toothpaste, etc. So, I had to make the trip to Wal-Mart, even though I knew it would be a bad idea. Well, I did get everything on my list...plus 2 necklaces, 5 shirts, and a couple of lip glosses. Damn....I really went in there thinking I could control it, but apparently I am not quite there yet.
why do i put up with this?
04.08.04 (12:19 pm) [edit]
I have been at my job for 2 years, 3 months, and 7 days. During this time, I have spent probably a good year of it being pissed off at one of my bosses. When I started here, they were in the process of building up a new company. I came in as an Administrative Assistant/Bookeeper. My two bosses had partnered in this business and I had to answer to both of them. There were also two other businesses that I was to help out with, one owned by the "good boss" (GB), and one owned by the "bad boss" (BB). Coming into the job, I didn't know either of them very well. I had met GB several times and knew that he was a pretty good guy because my mom had worked for him for several years.
So, starting out, they were pretty much on equal ground. It didn't take long to figure out that BB was a total ass. GB, on the other hand, really is a great guy. He may fuss occasionally when he really needs you to get something done, but he is very rarely ever disrespectful. He makes sure you know how much you are appreciated.
BB has pretty much been pissing me off since the very beginning. He has absolutely no respect for anyone, except for his assistant that he is having an affair with on the side. The rest of us he treats like shit. He just seems to think that he is better than everyone else in the world. Even in the community, when people find out that I work for him, you can instantly tell by the look on their faces, how much they dislike him. I wish I would have been fortunate enough to know this before I started working for him!
Anyway, GB is out of town for an extended personal leave. He has some things he needs to take care of and everyone has tried to be very understanding about it. We are doing the best we can to pick up the slack while he is gone and take care of things the best we can. BB, while GB is gone, has decided that this is his chance to become the "big man" that he wants to be. From our perspective it seems that he is trying to totally take over control of the business that GB helped him build up. He is bossing everyone around, including my mom, who doesn't even work for him. He expects us to jump whenever he says and he is not satisfied until we are wiping his ass for him! Everyone in the office has noticed this change. He is just unbearable right now.
This morning BB is out of town on business and he called in wanting me and my mom on a conference call so he could give us more shit to do. So, I go into my mom's office and put him on speaker phone. First thing he says to me is that he gave me some papers to fax to the attorney a couple weeks ago and that I faxed him the wrong thing. He tells me that I need to go get the right papers and send to him. When I tried to tell him I didn't know what papers he was talking about, he got mad. I told him that I would go look for it, but that it may take a while cause I wasn't really sure what I was looking for. He responded with telling me that it was "totally unacceptable" that I didn't know where it was. Apparently I am supposed to read his mind and know exactly what it is he is thinking of. So, I tried again to explain to him that I didn't know what papers he was talking about. Then he started yelling at me for being belligerant. Not only was he on speakerphone while he was saying this (where our whole office could hear him), but on his end he was sitting in a room full of people that got to listen to him go off on me. Now maybe I am just a little oversensitive today cause I'm majorly PMSing, but to me, this was just totally uncalled for. It just really pissed me off. I was so mad that I had to walk out of the office and left my mom there to deal with him. If I would have said anything back to him at that point, I'm not sure where it would have ended.
By the time I got back to my desk, I was not only furious with him, but I was also embarrased that everyone else had to hear that. I was shaking and the tears started rolling. I don't usually cry at the drop of a hat (unless I'm watching a movie) but I guess I was just so riled up that my body responded with tears. I really have to say that of all the people in the world that piss me off, this man is the absolute worst. He has no respect for anyone. If it wasn't for the fact that GB is such a great guy and I know he will be back in 2 weeks, I would have been out the door today. I just can't deal with BB anymore. He is such an ass.
I have calmed down quite a bit now, but I still have an incredible pain in my tense shoulders and I can feel how high my blood pressure has got to be right now. I feel like I'm boiling from the inside right now and it has been almost 2 hours since that happened.
Coincidently, I just happened to get an email this week advertising a bookeeper/secretarial job downtown. Maybe I need to rev up my resume a bit.
Anyway, I don't know if this makes much sense, but I just needed to get it out. I'm gonna go get some lunch and go shopping for a bit. Hopefully getting out of here for a while will help me to chill out.
So, starting out, they were pretty much on equal ground. It didn't take long to figure out that BB was a total ass. GB, on the other hand, really is a great guy. He may fuss occasionally when he really needs you to get something done, but he is very rarely ever disrespectful. He makes sure you know how much you are appreciated.
BB has pretty much been pissing me off since the very beginning. He has absolutely no respect for anyone, except for his assistant that he is having an affair with on the side. The rest of us he treats like shit. He just seems to think that he is better than everyone else in the world. Even in the community, when people find out that I work for him, you can instantly tell by the look on their faces, how much they dislike him. I wish I would have been fortunate enough to know this before I started working for him!
Anyway, GB is out of town for an extended personal leave. He has some things he needs to take care of and everyone has tried to be very understanding about it. We are doing the best we can to pick up the slack while he is gone and take care of things the best we can. BB, while GB is gone, has decided that this is his chance to become the "big man" that he wants to be. From our perspective it seems that he is trying to totally take over control of the business that GB helped him build up. He is bossing everyone around, including my mom, who doesn't even work for him. He expects us to jump whenever he says and he is not satisfied until we are wiping his ass for him! Everyone in the office has noticed this change. He is just unbearable right now.
This morning BB is out of town on business and he called in wanting me and my mom on a conference call so he could give us more shit to do. So, I go into my mom's office and put him on speaker phone. First thing he says to me is that he gave me some papers to fax to the attorney a couple weeks ago and that I faxed him the wrong thing. He tells me that I need to go get the right papers and send to him. When I tried to tell him I didn't know what papers he was talking about, he got mad. I told him that I would go look for it, but that it may take a while cause I wasn't really sure what I was looking for. He responded with telling me that it was "totally unacceptable" that I didn't know where it was. Apparently I am supposed to read his mind and know exactly what it is he is thinking of. So, I tried again to explain to him that I didn't know what papers he was talking about. Then he started yelling at me for being belligerant. Not only was he on speakerphone while he was saying this (where our whole office could hear him), but on his end he was sitting in a room full of people that got to listen to him go off on me. Now maybe I am just a little oversensitive today cause I'm majorly PMSing, but to me, this was just totally uncalled for. It just really pissed me off. I was so mad that I had to walk out of the office and left my mom there to deal with him. If I would have said anything back to him at that point, I'm not sure where it would have ended.
By the time I got back to my desk, I was not only furious with him, but I was also embarrased that everyone else had to hear that. I was shaking and the tears started rolling. I don't usually cry at the drop of a hat (unless I'm watching a movie) but I guess I was just so riled up that my body responded with tears. I really have to say that of all the people in the world that piss me off, this man is the absolute worst. He has no respect for anyone. If it wasn't for the fact that GB is such a great guy and I know he will be back in 2 weeks, I would have been out the door today. I just can't deal with BB anymore. He is such an ass.
I have calmed down quite a bit now, but I still have an incredible pain in my tense shoulders and I can feel how high my blood pressure has got to be right now. I feel like I'm boiling from the inside right now and it has been almost 2 hours since that happened.
Coincidently, I just happened to get an email this week advertising a bookeeper/secretarial job downtown. Maybe I need to rev up my resume a bit.
Anyway, I don't know if this makes much sense, but I just needed to get it out. I'm gonna go get some lunch and go shopping for a bit. Hopefully getting out of here for a while will help me to chill out.
uuugghh!
04.07.04 (4:39 pm) [edit]
Sometime right after lunch I suddenly got a massive headache....which led to me suddenly becoming very grumpy and hard to get along with! I'm usually a very friendly person, but when I don't feel good everyone should stay at least 500 feet away to be safe (with the exception of my hubby...he is allowed to be close only if he is willing to hug and cuddle me).
So, my solution to this is to jack around on the computer all afternoon instead of working and make my headache even worse. Only 24 more minutes to go and I am free!
So, my solution to this is to jack around on the computer all afternoon instead of working and make my headache even worse. Only 24 more minutes to go and I am free!
Portland, here I come!
04.07.04 (12:05 pm) [edit]
I bought my plane tickets lastnight for Portland, OR. My hubby and I are FINALLY taking a vacation this summer that does not involve going to see family! We are going to go visit a friend of mine, but are taking a few days out for some "us" time. Since we have been together we have not had a real vacation, or even a honeymoon. June 8th will be our 2 year anniversary and we are finally gonna get away!
I am so excited about this trip. My friend has been asking me to come out there for about 2 1/2 years now. We are gonna stay with her mostly, but are also planning to take a little side trip and go up to Seattle and probably venture up to Vancouver. I've never been to Canada before. We might go to Mt. St. Helens. So many options, so little time. I'm just excited. I can't wait to go. I want to get online and research and figure out what all we want to do so we can plan our time out.
If anyone has suggestions for what to do in those areas, please feel free to share!
I am so excited about this trip. My friend has been asking me to come out there for about 2 1/2 years now. We are gonna stay with her mostly, but are also planning to take a little side trip and go up to Seattle and probably venture up to Vancouver. I've never been to Canada before. We might go to Mt. St. Helens. So many options, so little time. I'm just excited. I can't wait to go. I want to get online and research and figure out what all we want to do so we can plan our time out.
If anyone has suggestions for what to do in those areas, please feel free to share!
the list is getting longer...
04.06.04 (10:15 am) [edit]
The more time I spend hanging around tblog, the longer my favorites list gets. I have found so many blogs that I enjoy reading. The problem with this is that it takes so darn long to read them! If I don't keep up with them on a daily basis, then it takes me a while to catch up. I just don't want to miss anything! Other people seem to have such interesting lives. Anyway, the point is that tblog is taking up more and more of my time it seems.
As a side note, they are cleaning the windows in my office building today (from the outside) and there are these guys climbing all over the windows with those big suction cup things. It is really quite a site to watch them. The annoying part is I keep having to hear "thud....clunk....thud....bang...." over and over again as they are working. It is rather distracting and I don't even get the benefit cause I don't have any windows in my part of the office!
As a side note, they are cleaning the windows in my office building today (from the outside) and there are these guys climbing all over the windows with those big suction cup things. It is really quite a site to watch them. The annoying part is I keep having to hear "thud....clunk....thud....bang...." over and over again as they are working. It is rather distracting and I don't even get the benefit cause I don't have any windows in my part of the office!
new header and the monday blahs....
04.05.04 (2:03 pm) [edit]
I made a new header with some of the pics I took this weekend. Not quite sure if I like it or not. I'm kinda missing my M.C. Escher header already.
Monday has absolutely got to be the worst day of the week. I had a great weekend but I am dragging so bad today. I just want to go home and go to bed. I think next weekend I need to just stay home and get some rest. I've been finding lately that I'm really not sleeping good on Sunday nights. I'm thinking maybe it is related to the stress at work and the idea of going back on Monday morning. Just a thought....
Monday has absolutely got to be the worst day of the week. I had a great weekend but I am dragging so bad today. I just want to go home and go to bed. I think next weekend I need to just stay home and get some rest. I've been finding lately that I'm really not sleeping good on Sunday nights. I'm thinking maybe it is related to the stress at work and the idea of going back on Monday morning. Just a thought....
Shinedown show
04.05.04 (9:55 am) [edit]
Well, I had this nice review of the Tantric, Shinedown, and Silvertide (see previous post for links) concert all typed out yesterday then I went to post it and found out that tblog had gone offline while I was typing so I lost it all. I will try to recreate it as best I can.
we got to the show plenty early. It was at a very small venue, so we wanted to make sure we could get close to the stage. We were some of the first people inside and got right up next to the stage. I ended up right against the stage between two monitors. The stage was only about 3 feet tall, and rather small, so I was extremely close to the band members on my side of the stage.
The first band up was Silvertide. I hadn't heard of them before the show and wasn't really sure what to expect, but I was pleasantly surprised. They put on a great performance. This was their first night back on tour after their van broke down in CA and they were really pumped up. It was good enough to convince me to buy a cd!
Next was Shinedown. They were the whole reason I went to the show. These guys are just amazing! I was right in front of the guitarist while they were playing. I was close enough that I got flipped in the face a couple times with his hair! I spent most of the time being mesmerized by the guitar playing. I probably missed a lot of the show cause I was so focused on Jasin Todd's hands! I pulled out my phone and took some pics (posted below) of the band. I caught a pick that was thrown out. They did an absolutely amazing rendition of "45" that seemed to go on forever. It was definitely the highlight of the show! After the show I shook hands with all of the band members and later got a chance to talk to the singer for a while and got his signature. He told us that they just agreed to play Rockfest this summer, so I am pumped for that. These guys were really cool. They are very down to earth and you could tell how much they appreciated the fans.
Tantric was the headliner. I've never really listened to them much and honestly I wasn't too impressed. They aren't bad, just not my style of music I guess. I was however impressed by their guitar player. He played previously with Days of the New, which I did like, but I guess I just never paid that much attention. Not only is he a great guitar player, he is incredibly sexy. If I wasn't a married woman...... Ok, sorry, back to reality. They did put on a good show, it just didn't do much for me.
Overall it was a great night. I really enjoyed the show, got a few good pics, and hopefully picked up a few guitar licks (if I can remember them later).
Here is a little collage I put together of the Shinedown pics, my ticket, and the pick that I caught. I might post some Tantric pics later but I haven't had time to do much with them yet.
[image]hardtoimagine_7577 92717.jpg[/image]
we got to the show plenty early. It was at a very small venue, so we wanted to make sure we could get close to the stage. We were some of the first people inside and got right up next to the stage. I ended up right against the stage between two monitors. The stage was only about 3 feet tall, and rather small, so I was extremely close to the band members on my side of the stage.
The first band up was Silvertide. I hadn't heard of them before the show and wasn't really sure what to expect, but I was pleasantly surprised. They put on a great performance. This was their first night back on tour after their van broke down in CA and they were really pumped up. It was good enough to convince me to buy a cd!
Next was Shinedown. They were the whole reason I went to the show. These guys are just amazing! I was right in front of the guitarist while they were playing. I was close enough that I got flipped in the face a couple times with his hair! I spent most of the time being mesmerized by the guitar playing. I probably missed a lot of the show cause I was so focused on Jasin Todd's hands! I pulled out my phone and took some pics (posted below) of the band. I caught a pick that was thrown out. They did an absolutely amazing rendition of "45" that seemed to go on forever. It was definitely the highlight of the show! After the show I shook hands with all of the band members and later got a chance to talk to the singer for a while and got his signature. He told us that they just agreed to play Rockfest this summer, so I am pumped for that. These guys were really cool. They are very down to earth and you could tell how much they appreciated the fans.
Tantric was the headliner. I've never really listened to them much and honestly I wasn't too impressed. They aren't bad, just not my style of music I guess. I was however impressed by their guitar player. He played previously with Days of the New, which I did like, but I guess I just never paid that much attention. Not only is he a great guitar player, he is incredibly sexy. If I wasn't a married woman...... Ok, sorry, back to reality. They did put on a good show, it just didn't do much for me.
Overall it was a great night. I really enjoyed the show, got a few good pics, and hopefully picked up a few guitar licks (if I can remember them later).
Here is a little collage I put together of the Shinedown pics, my ticket, and the pick that I caught. I might post some Tantric pics later but I haven't had time to do much with them yet.
[image]hardtoimagine_7577 92717.jpg[/image]
slideshow
04.03.04 (2:05 pm) [edit]
I decided to try out the new slideshow feature and you can see the results by clicking the link on the right. These are a few of the pics I have taken with my new camera phone. Nothing too exciting really.
a surprise phone call
04.02.04 (3:48 pm) [edit]
I just got a surprise phone call from an old friend! We used to hang out quite a bit when I was in high school and then lost contact. We just happened to run into each other at a restaurant a while back and have been playing phone tag ever since, never catching each other. Anyway, she just called and we actually made plans to get together and catch up sometime. I am super excited to get to hang out with her again! :D
update
04.02.04 (2:10 pm) [edit]
So I went and bought my new wireless router at lunch and now I really want to go home so I can set it up! I knew I should have waited until after work. I get too excited about my new toys. :lol:
yahoo!
04.02.04 (11:00 am) [edit]
I love Fridays! Yes, this is my third post so far this morning. I really don't want to work today. I just keep thinking of all the stuff I'm doing this weekend.
Tonight we are having some friends over for dinner and movies. They are bringing us a tiller so we can start on our garden. Plus, we are going to work on some updates on the band website.
Saturday, I'm hoping to work out in the yard (hopefully I will actually do it this time!) for a bit cause we're supposed to have nice weather this weekend. Then, we are going with some friends to see Tantric, Shinedown, and a band I haven't heard of Silvertide. I'm really excited to see Shinedown. They are one of my new favorites. It is at a really small venue too, so it should be a great show!
Sunday, hopefully I'm gonna be able to relax a bit and play my Metroid-Zero Mission game that I got last weekend for my Gameboy. I haven't had much time to play it yet and its driving me crazy cause its just sitting there.
It's gonna be another busy weekend, but should be lots of fun. I just can't wait for 5:00 to get here so I can get started on it!
I'm also going to go buy a wireless router today for my computer today so I can move around with my laptop and still have my internet connection instead of being stuck in one spot. I always get excited when I get new toys!
Well, I guess I better go and get at least a little work done today!
Tonight we are having some friends over for dinner and movies. They are bringing us a tiller so we can start on our garden. Plus, we are going to work on some updates on the band website.
Saturday, I'm hoping to work out in the yard (hopefully I will actually do it this time!) for a bit cause we're supposed to have nice weather this weekend. Then, we are going with some friends to see Tantric, Shinedown, and a band I haven't heard of Silvertide. I'm really excited to see Shinedown. They are one of my new favorites. It is at a really small venue too, so it should be a great show!
Sunday, hopefully I'm gonna be able to relax a bit and play my Metroid-Zero Mission game that I got last weekend for my Gameboy. I haven't had much time to play it yet and its driving me crazy cause its just sitting there.
It's gonna be another busy weekend, but should be lots of fun. I just can't wait for 5:00 to get here so I can get started on it!
I'm also going to go buy a wireless router today for my computer today so I can move around with my laptop and still have my internet connection instead of being stuck in one spot. I always get excited when I get new toys!
Well, I guess I better go and get at least a little work done today!
her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
04.02.04 (10:14 am) [edit]
I just heard this song on the radio. It has become one of my favorites. I love Jack Johnson's music. I want give a big thank you to the person that first introduced me to it!
Bubbly Toes-Jack Johnson
It's as simple as something that nobody knows
that her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
on the feet of a queen of the hearts of the cards
and her feet are infested with tar balls and scars
It's as common as something that nobody knows that her beauty will
follow wherever she goes
up the hill in the back of her house in the wood
will she love me forever,
I know she could
I remember when,
you and me,
mmm how we used to be just good friends
Wouldn't give me none
But all I wanted was some
He's got a whole lot of reasons
he cant think of a single one
That can justify leaving
and she got none but he thinks she got so many problems
and she got, too much time to waste
His dreams are like commercials
But her dreams are picture perfect and Our
dreams are so related though they're often underestimated
It's as simple as something that nobody knows that and
Her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
On the feet of the queen of the hearts of the card
feet are infested with tar balls
and La da da da da da
La da da da da da da
La da da da da da
Well I was eating lunch at the D. L. G.
When this little girl came and she sat next to me
never seen nobody move the way she did
Well she did and she does and she'll do it again
When you move like a jellyfish
Rhythm don't mean nothing
You go with the flow
You don't stop
Move like a jellyfish
Rhythm is nothing
You go with the flow
You don't stop mmm
It's as common as something that nobody knows that
Her beauty will follow wherever she goes
Up the hill in the back of her house in the wood
She'll love me forever, I know
she La da da da da da
If you would only listen
You might just realize what you're missing
You're missing me
If you would only listen
You might just realize what you're missing
You're missing me
It's as simple as something that nobody knows that
Her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
On the feet of the queen of the hearts of the card
feet are infested with tar balls
and La da da da da da
Bubbly Toes-Jack Johnson
It's as simple as something that nobody knows
that her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
on the feet of a queen of the hearts of the cards
and her feet are infested with tar balls and scars
It's as common as something that nobody knows that her beauty will
follow wherever she goes
up the hill in the back of her house in the wood
will she love me forever,
I know she could
I remember when,
you and me,
mmm how we used to be just good friends
Wouldn't give me none
But all I wanted was some
He's got a whole lot of reasons
he cant think of a single one
That can justify leaving
and she got none but he thinks she got so many problems
and she got, too much time to waste
His dreams are like commercials
But her dreams are picture perfect and Our
dreams are so related though they're often underestimated
It's as simple as something that nobody knows that and
Her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
On the feet of the queen of the hearts of the card
feet are infested with tar balls
and La da da da da da
La da da da da da da
La da da da da da
Well I was eating lunch at the D. L. G.
When this little girl came and she sat next to me
never seen nobody move the way she did
Well she did and she does and she'll do it again
When you move like a jellyfish
Rhythm don't mean nothing
You go with the flow
You don't stop
Move like a jellyfish
Rhythm is nothing
You go with the flow
You don't stop mmm
It's as common as something that nobody knows that
Her beauty will follow wherever she goes
Up the hill in the back of her house in the wood
She'll love me forever, I know
she La da da da da da
If you would only listen
You might just realize what you're missing
You're missing me
If you would only listen
You might just realize what you're missing
You're missing me
It's as simple as something that nobody knows that
Her eyes are as big as her bubbly toes
On the feet of the queen of the hearts of the card
feet are infested with tar balls
and La da da da da da
a nice reminder
04.02.04 (9:34 am) [edit]
I have received this several times in an e-mail, but I received it again this morning. Every time I read it I am reminded that I should pay better attention to what is going on around me and not be so wrapped up in my own life that I miss the important things.
THE BRICK
A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting, "What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are! you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?" The young boy was apologetic. "Please, mister..please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," He pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..."With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. "It's my brother," he said. "He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up." Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me." Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay.. "Thank you and may God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger. Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home
It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message "Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!" God whispers in our souls and speaks to! our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not.
A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting, "What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are! you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?" The young boy was apologetic. "Please, mister..please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," He pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..."With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. "It's my brother," he said. "He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up." Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me." Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay.. "Thank you and may God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger. Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home
It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message "Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!" God whispers in our souls and speaks to! our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not.
panic attack!
04.01.04 (3:55 pm) [edit]
I just checked my stats and found that someone found my site by searching for "flexible bullit", the name of my friend's band. Now I am all panicky thinking, what if that is someone I know. I don't share this blog with my friends for a reason. Only a couple people know about it. My husband is not even aware of it! I like it that way. If others I know are reading it, I'm gonna have to start censoring myself and I really don't want to do that. I wish I knew who it was that found me. I am so nervous now. I don't know that there is really anything bad on here, but I just like not having to worry about what I say. I am just freaked out right now. I know it shouldn't matter. I know I shouldn't care, but I am panicky now. UUUGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
my dilemma
04.01.04 (10:24 am) [edit]
Some of you may know that I dabble a little bit in web design. I am not a pro by any means, but I have a few sites that I have designed and maintain. I am self-taught in web design and I don't really do anything fancy, but I think my sites look pretty good. I also think that I am a pretty good judge of other sites. Some of the sites out there on the web just plain suck.
So, here is where the dilemma is. My cousin is building a web site for his church. This is the first site he has built and he is asking for opinions on it. I looked at it today for the first time and my honest opinion of it is that it totally sucks. I just don't know how to tactfully tell him this without hurting his feelings. I have made a couple of suggestions, but I don't want to totally crush him. At the same time, I don't want him to put up a bad web site and get criticized from others about it. I'm just not sure how to tell him.
So, here is where the dilemma is. My cousin is building a web site for his church. This is the first site he has built and he is asking for opinions on it. I looked at it today for the first time and my honest opinion of it is that it totally sucks. I just don't know how to tactfully tell him this without hurting his feelings. I have made a couple of suggestions, but I don't want to totally crush him. At the same time, I don't want him to put up a bad web site and get criticized from others about it. I'm just not sure how to tell him.